![]() ![]() During sessions spent in her dimly lit home office, I learned that depression had been with me long before the baby arrived. It wasn’t until the post-baby blues lingered and I found it impossible to be the kind of mother I wanted to be that I began seeing a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with depression in 2007, a year after having my first child. This is why for the first time in my life, I want people to know what I’ve been through. I had already been there and back.Īs we head into a second year of the pandemic, people are depressed, anxious, and thinking about suicide at alarming rates. I knew firsthand the impact this can have on a person. ![]() I watched how people were forced into isolation, cut off from their support systems, told to stay home and stay away from one another. But I have never wanted to tell my own story. ![]() They trust that I will treat their words with dignity and respect, an honor I protect fiercely. As a journalist, I’ve witnessed the strength it takes for people to sit down with me during what might be the most difficult or emotional moment of their life. I never wanted to do exactly what I am doing right now: tell my story to all of Boston. Still, I never wanted to share this story beyond my circle of friends and family. What saved me was learning to open up about what I was going through with the people I loved. Instead, I put myself in an emotional quarantine-and it could have cost me my life. But listen to myself talk about my own feelings? That held no interest for me. My job is to communicate: It’s what I love to do. After all, I’d spent the past 25 years in broadcast news. There is a certain irony to how closed off I’d been. The one person in Boston who was aware that something was up didn’t know the half of it until he found me that morning unconscious in my living room. Yet I told almost no one-not my family, not even the people I consider my best friends. I had been suffering in silence for more than a year, first from depression and then from debilitating anxiety. ![]()
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